fucking a

FUCK THE WORLD dont ask me for shit because everything i got i've worked hard for it. but i dont have anything so should i fuck the world. or should i be nice -- i hate having to put up a front to get to the corner of the area in life where you want to be.. you go thru life wanting to be genuine and pure or at least not an dick , well at least most people, but to get to your end the means sometimes may have you become something you never wanted to be but the reason you became that was in persuit of what you really wanted to be. so if you change at the end trying to become someone w/ something or at least the person whom you originally wanted to be, then why dont we just stay who we are and where we are in life? is it because everyone is always asking for so much from you and you want to please everyone but loose yourself in the process. is it society telling you and having it burned into the phsicy of the person themself that you have to be rich in order to be happy. or lucky in love. or to be somebody.

so by the end of it all everyone is happy and no one cares, or is blinded from the light that you have shed, that you helped make them happy but while you were doing them you forgot to do yourself, and are people so selfish that they dont realize what one is doing for them, and try to repay the deed. although they shoudlnt be asked to repay the deed they have received because they are just that deeds one person did for the other in hope of making them see life in a more of a clear manner.

is it selfish for the one doing the deeds to feel as if though he or she needs to be repaid for what they have done. if it was done to help that other being then it shouldnt be expected to be done back. unless the person doing the deeds needs someone to make them see the things from a 3rd point of view. maybe they need to realize that the persons they are assisting with the deeds is his way to express his frustration at things. life , love , and whatever it is that urks them or me!!

my first time

well this is my first blog after all the confusion that i had w/ the basic starting of the blog.. i hope its alright now b/c if it isnt then all hell is going to break loose.but so far it seems like im doing the right thing.